Folks, I’m seriously frustrated with the bike. As I’ve said before, last Tuesday, I took Shadow Comet, my road bike, out to the parking lot, stopped it, started it, I even wove around posts with great control. I felt fine, smooth, confident. Then, I hit the bike path in Monterey on Saturday, and freaked out a bit, got wobbly, but managed to stay upright the whole time. This morning, on the somewhat scary and narrow Ballona Creek bike path, I straddled the bike, pushed off, and almost wobbled into a gate. What the heck?
Clearly, given the fact that I had nailed the bike in the parking lot, this wobbling is mostly due to confidence. I think that I have put so much pressure on myself to be successful and to catch up to all of those folks who have been riding for years, that it undermines my efforts. While I did feel more confident while rolling along the path (a lot less wobbling), I think I psyched myself out when starting off. And, of course, the more I psych myself out and think I’ll wobble or fall, the more I create a situation where I could wobble and fall before picking up speed.
I know that there’s nothing that I can do to get better but to spend more time in the saddle, but it seems like, the more pressure I put on myself to get better, the more I freak out. How do I get myself into the right head space to be confident and calm? My first group ride is this weekend and I am terrified (mostly of embarrassing myself in front of my teammates). I would have thought that, by now, the confidence thing would be going in the right direction, but it seems to be going backward inexplicably. I’m incredibly frustrated and scared I’ll be left behind in training.
Has anyone been in a similar situation and found a technique to help calm the fear and boost confidence? Please share! Thanks 🙂